Is there a career/profession you’ve always envisioned for yourself? Is there a point of view you have always had and were so set that this is the right one, that this is who you are and nothing can change that?
For me that passion was mathematics, ever since I can remember, I’ve always been really good at math. I even remember in elementary school doing math homework was a breeze but reading and writing…well, let’s not get into that. However, by the looks of starting this blog I guess we can say I didn’t do too bad. Mathematics was the only thing I wanted to do. I was excited to learn about different branches of math in particular number theory and calculus. But the more I advanced into my studies I began wonder if this was the right place for me. I envisioned myself becoming a college professor teaching mathematics, then slowly the dream was fading. I even started a graduate program but, the fire I had burning slowly started fading.
One morning while working on a project, it hit me and I said to myself “This is no longer your passion anymore.” I sat there thinking that I somehow have betrayed myself because I felt that this is me, that the passion I have for mathematics somehow defines me. I thought some more and I came to the realization that it’s okay to no longer be passionate about it again. I think I’ve known for a while but I’ve been fighting it because I felt like I was somehow letting myself down. Now I realize this is only hurting me. It’s occupying space into my life for something greater than I can even imagine. Something that would bring me much more joy, or possibly a greater opportunity to do other things I’m passionate about as well.
I share this story because, it’s okay not to be passionate about the things that you once thought you were. It’s okay because as individuals we are evolving everyday. Who we are today is not who we will be tomorrow. As cliche as it sounds, it’s true. We aren’t meant to be neither one-dimensional nor never changing beings. If so, we’d all be robots. Moments like these help define us to make us uniquely and beautifully ourselves.
So maybe you have always been passionate about that career, that point of view, that goal for your life, it’s perfectly okay not to be passionate about it. And don’t think that you are defying yourself in any way. Maybe you’ve never wanted children but now you do, that’s okay. Maybe you thought your life was where you waned to to be, but now you’re realizing that you need to make changes that you were always against, as long as you’re not harming yourself go for it. Embrace this new found knowledge of yourself. At the end of the day, you are learning something about yourself that will shape you for the better. The more you know about yourself, the more you are able to evolve and the more you are able to make decisions that will allow you to live a happily, healthily, and beautifully life.
What are some your passions that you are no longer passionate about and how did you come to that confusion?